Well.. I went to the doctor well my psychiatrist and I had my annual evaluation and we went over a huge amount of stuff history, child hood, medical stuff etc. Well it turns out I have borderline personality disorder. I still don't quite understand it but she made me feel better about my self and that i'll be ok o: and it's not my fault so i'm not super worried. I'm gonna get the proper help I need now so I can get better and be a better person so i'm ok. I'm just happy I know whats wrong and why I do the stupid crap I do. I understand a lot of why things happened in the past and i'm ok with this now. I know I can handle this and i'm gonna get better c: so life u better watch out ima commin.